Going to try to find some peace. Thank you all. xoxo
Posts in my queue will publish…
Just a woman trying to survive the ins/outs, ups/downs, triumphs/tragedies of life. With some humor. And some perspective.
The man I loved for six years had an affair:
” risk taking is not about going into something dangerous, it is about determining that the benefit of what be (sic) achieved greatly outweighs any consequence. Not having you is worse than any possible side effect. ” – Bob “Clo”, Jr. PhuckingD to Viktoria.
Yet he told me that “They were only words to her.”
And, oh fuck yeah. . .there were many side effects AND consequences . . .
To Bob, I was/am nothing but an irrelevant, meaningless, trivial consequence. I am forever altered and irrevocably damaged by his presence . . . by his actions . . . by his words . . .by his very being . . .
So, here I am. With only words.
And each time I feel badly about this blog, all I have to do is think about his statement that he doesn’t care about consequences. Not to mention how he left me in a mental black hole, with permanent physical damage, and one big-ass financial shit–hole. And he doesn’t care about consequences.
*** This blog is not suited for those that are faint of heart, easily shocked and/or considered “genteel”. ***
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In short, I’ve made much of my blog (and trust you me, there’s a ton of it!) private til I can get my head on straight again and get my heart out of the black hole that it’s been seemingly lost to. My soul has taken a direct hit and I am just trying to figure out how best to heal.
Thanks for your understanding and taking the time to stop by.
xoxo
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